Friday, October 31, 2008

I am reading the whole series of Harry Potter and I have finished 1 and. I’m reading the third one now and my goal is to read them all before Christmas. I want to read the whole series strait.

My grandma loves the Harry Potter books and she loves anything with witches and wizards. She can read books 1,2 and 3 in one day and when she got the seventh book she spent all day reading it. She counted down the days and months until the seventh book came out. My grandpa can make anything out of wood and he has taught me how to use the tools. I love making things out of wood.

My grandpa likes Harry Potter too and he can make wands out of wood. He has taught me how to with a chisel. I love making things out of wood. My grandpa and me had a project to do for my school. We had to make a Greek boat and I spent one weekend making it my grandpa and me and I had a great time.
To me knowledge is like the stuff you learn in school like math, science, history, etc. It’s something that you’re taught by another person or something you learn from a movie or a book. Wisdom to me is something you learn by going through life. You learn wisdom by making mistakes and realizing what you did wrong and how to fix it. Everyday you gain wisdom just by doing what you normally do everyday. Wisdom is like knowledge you gain the hard way. A good example of wisdom is old people; they are full of wisdom because they have lived along time, which gives them all that time to gain wisdom. You have to be young and stupid to be old and wise.

Nick

Halloween

I think Halloween is a great holiday. It’s great because everyone can have fun. Small children can dress up as who or what ever they want and get candy for it. Teens and adults can go to fancy dress parties and socialize and have a good time. Halloween is also steeped in symbolism from jack-o-lanterns to the very day itself. Personally I enjoy the latter, knowing the hidden meanings of things we find on All Hallows Eve.

Halloween also affords us the comfort and courage that come from wearing a mask. I’ll admit I feel braver when I wear a mask. Others can’t see and judge the real me, only what they can see. I find it interesting that we become different people when we tell ourselves we are someone else. Masks and costumes are ways for us to hide our weakness and our shortcomings, perhaps that’s why they are so universal and have occurred throughout time.
LIVING IN THE MOMENT


Living for the present means not thinking about the consequences of tomorrow. A lot of people I know live for today. They do not think about the future, and what will happen if they do something. Living in the present is easier then to have to think about the consequences and what they determination happen if you do something.
Nobody knows when he or she is going to die or when he or she going to get hurt severely so they go out and do whatever they want. You never what is going to happen, so why not live for the present?
I feel if you understand your past you can make a better decision on your future. Personally, I think that’s what a lot of people who live in the present do. They don’t fully understand how to think about the future.
I’m not saying living in the present is bad or anything. I just think that you should think about some consequences before you make your actions.

Kelsee

Moves of Horror

Moves of Horror

Halloween use to be my favorite holiday but now it is just an ok holiday. The reason it is no longer my favorite holiday is because I can’t watch movies I use to. I was put into programming back when I was 14 years old, and in my first program I was not suppose to watch ‘R’ rated movies. I did it anyway. I got kicked out of that program because I screwed myself over. So then I was put into group homes. In the group homes I’ve been in I have been allowed to watch suspenseful movies, which are ok. But I don’t get the thrill, and adrenalin I use to get. I use to watch stuff like the Texas Chainsaw Massacre (old and new), all the Halloween movies, etc… you know those movies yeah those ones. I loved watching the new horror movies the blood and gore stuff that gave me a thrill, and it was because it would put me on the edge of my seat.

James Martin
I moved to Utah about 4 years ago this thanksgiving. I lived in Southern California, and moving to Utah had never crossed my mind. I was in 9th grade at the time when my dad told me.

My dad thought we would move so I wouldn’t get into any more trouble than I was. I started drinking at age 9 when my older brother said it was a Kool-Aid party. But I still drank it because my dad wasn’t home I knew I wouldn’t get into trouble. I first tried a cigarette when I was about the same age but it tasted disgusting. But the next thing I knew I was stealing them and smoking them when my dad and his new wife weren’t home, which was often. I only smoked because it kind of made me feel a little better. When I turned about 10 I got into my brothers stash. I knew what it was and I was upset, so I took a pipe of his that i saw and I took what I saw and smoked it of course. It was only weed. But a year later I went up a level I guess you could say. I started being a speed ball. Then went to cocaine and meth at age 12. I didn’t really care what I was doing because it was like nobody could stop me. Nobody at school suspected that I would do something like that, but little did every body know. I started to deal the drugs I used to get money and get more drugs. It’s like the circle of life. I didn’t like myself. I started to get lower grades in about 7th and 8th grade but they were still passing. I was completely the kind of person know one would suspect.
But my dad wanted to move me to another state he thought would be better, but now I’m in even more trouble than I was when I didn’t live here. But I’m getting better.
My friends

My friends, I’ve got good and bad friends. An example of a good friend would be my friend Jeff because he has always supported me even when I made a mistake. He would be there to say “I’m not here to judge how can I help”. An example of a bad friend would be Dominic because he supported me when I came to fighting and drinking which obviously is not a good thing to have. So I have friends on both spectrums good and bad. Which is not always a bad thing if you have lots of self-control, and it’s good because you get to learn more self-control, to learn from others mistakes, and to learn patience. The friends I want to keep are the good ones obviously because they have good qualities that I want to have someday. Character and integrity are something my good friends really look for in others. Which is something I also look at when I am looking for friends.
Fear
I am afraid I will never play football again. My high school chances of that are over and done with. I no longer have an opportunity of a scholarship. I have lost my muscle, weight, and speed. Biggest of all I can’t even talk to the coaches that are interested in me.
Football is one of the most important things to me in my life; I just can’t give it up. When my program demanded that of me I lost a part of myself. I don’t know if that part will ever come back. I know that the only person that can change my situation is myself. Maybe that is the scary part of it.
I should be working out during my time here at Summit while I am in gym. Instead I have been focused on giving back to the school and our new basketball team. If I truly have what it takes to play college ball I will get things done.
I hate addmitting I am wrong. Most everyone that has known me and knows my dreams has told me I won’t make it. That even includes family. I have always come through with what I say in the end. I can see my dream, and I am so close yet so far. Hope and faith is all I have. I have to do this for Regan, right here, right

Regan
I believe that hard work can get you somewhere but you have to be a very outgoing and hard worker. My uncle didn’t even graduate high school and he makes 500,000 dollars a year of coarse he struggled thought life and he has worked very hard for that good of a job. But he could have things a lot easier if he would have just graduated high school. I think kids these days are lazy. They expect state assistance and all that but we shouldn’t expect people to take care of us. Especially if you are capable of getting a job then you should get one.

Taylor K.
I agree with the statement that money is a great evil because money drives people crazy. It even drives people mad. With my brother and I we would fight over money that we would find around the house. But my brother and I had a job and my sister would steal our money so I had a safe and I would put my money in that so she wouldn’t be able to steal it. But money would drive us mad.

In the book Frankenstein were reading as a class Victor’s evil is the creature. The creature is evil and wants things from Victor and is asking a lot of Victor. What causes the creatures evil is he’s ugly and scary and has no friends. No one wants him around and everyone’s afraid of him. Everyone’s afraid of him hurting him. I would be afraid of him and I would beat him with a stick so he wouldn’t hurt me.
What if someone asked you what you think the root to all evil is? Well if someone asked me I would probably say money or pride. The reason why I would say that is because as I looked at our everyday life I realized that people are always committing crimes in order to keep up their pride or to get money. So what would be your root to all evil within yourself? As I was walking around school yesterday I noticed that people walk around with trying to keep their pride up so they will have evil in their minds and they don’t know anything else until they know how to let go of their pride. Their want for money or whatever else they have for the root to their evil.

Another example I have for people that have pride is the book we were reading in our English class is called Frankenstein. In the book this guy makes a monster and after the monster is made he runs away from his problem. But before the monster is made I think the guy has a lot of pride and he wants to prove to everyone that he can do something remarkable. So he makes the monster, but when the monster comes to life all he wants is for someone to love and no one will so the monster starts to kill people. But as you can tell everyone has a different reason for root to all evil. Some people its money, some its pride, some its even love, But there are so many different reasons for people to act the way that they do.

Sarah
How much education do you think someone needs?
I don’t think we need all of the education that we have to get here in school. I know plenty of people that don’t even have a G.E.D and are doing great. My general manager at McDonald’s is managing two stores and yea I’m sure no one wants to be managing a McDonald’s but you know what with work he’s going to be corporate soon and he’s 20 years old and has no G.E.D or anything.
What I think is really important is street smarts. That way you learn first hand how to budget money and still have something to eat the next day. My parents went through this with my sister and me. Some days my mom and dad didn’t even eat just so we could eat that day. Then we moved and my parents started to make more money but the thing is that they knew how to budget it. They didn’t just blow it.
Raiders Night


I just read an awesome book. The name of the book is called Raiders Night and it is a life long reader book. Being a football player and a team captain this book related to me well. Even if you are not into football this is a book for everyone.
It is an emotional story about the team captain Matt. He has some crap get out of hand during summer camp with hazing. When the ordeal threatens to tear the team and town apart, he and his best friends on the team (the Back Pack) have to decide what they will do as leaders.
Are the season and their D-1 scholarships more important than a teammate’s mental health and reputation? The book answers the question. If you want an uplifting story of learning to put self after others, this is it. I strongly recommend this book to all athletes.
My goals in life.


I have a number of things I want in life, and in order to be able to do any of
them I have to set goals for my self. Right now I just want to make sure I get through my high schooling and get a part time job so I can start saving for part of my tuition.

I have always thought of myself getting married but when I was little I did what any other five through twelve year olds did. I just imagined that I only would want to marry a celebrity. That is not the case anymore. I find myself realizing that that wouldn’t be real.
I only want to marry someone if I love him or her. We would need to have trust and a honest relationship. It would also be important if we had things in common. A part of a relationship is being able to except the other persons flaws. Some things I know I can’t deal with are bad hygiene, cheating, and violence. I can’t see myself with some one who can’t take care of themself or some one who say they love and then go and sleep around. When you get married you make vows to be devoted to that person and that person only. If you’re interested in other people then you don’t belong in a marital situation, and the violence situation I won’t put up with that at all. I know that some people feel the need to make sure that their strength is known and I personally don’t care. You don’t abuse the people that love you. And I will tell anyone that I may be involved with the same thing.
If you lay one hand on me in a violent way I will tie you to the side of a car and speed down the freeway until they start banging up against the side of it.

After all of my love life and everything is all stable, and my money situation is good
I will start college. I plan on going to college for at least six years to get my masters in
the forensic field, or in being a reptile specialty.




By: Shalee
My childhood was like any other. I was born in a hospital with my birth mom and my dad right there. My older brother and grandma were also there… so I’ve heard. My dad was not married to my birth mother. It was on January 15th, 1991. My first memory was of my mom, and boyfriend chasing my brothers and I up the stairs because she was drunk.
A couple of months later my dad met a new woman, Tracy Ruiz, and she helped him go to AA and NA so he could stay clean for his kids. She had 2 daughters that didn’t like my dad. But my dad and Tracy married February 1992, with family and friends there.
She encouraged my dad to get full custody of my older brother, Reece, and I. My birth mother wasn’t fit to do the job.
My mom worked in Riverside, CA and my dad worked in Palm Springs, CA. So we moved a lot because they couldn’t decide where to live. I went to a private school in the beginning of 2nd grade.
Little did I know my dad and Tracy were planning on getting a divorce when I was in 2nd grade. I moved to Landers, CA that year with my dad and brother. It was only us until my dad met yet, another woman, who happened to be my bus-driver at the time, and started to play the dating game. Neither me, nor, my brother liked this woman, but it didn’t matter to my dad.
This is where I ended up, because of that woman… anything can happen.

Kelsee

Frankenstein

In my young life time I have seen/been told that Frankenstein was either green or pale, was created by some mad scientist and his assistant, and had freaking bolts in his neck and stitching all over his body. But now I am being told something different, and see right now in English I am reading the original version of Frankenstein. The book I’m reading it’s weird because Frankenstein is the creator with out assistant. There is no bolt in the neck, and the monster is made up of dead people, now that’s just weird, literally he is made up of random body parts from a slaughterhouse. It’s just like life for you to hear something and turns out it is wrong I tell you what I think that life is there to screw you over. Because everyone says “do what you set your mind to” and everyone can except for when life throws hardballs at you, and if somebody dies then that really does affect your life. So yeah life is there to screw you over I my opinion.

Monday, October 6, 2008

My Problems

My problems
I’ve seen plenty of movies where there is a perfect family. I hate those movies because I watch the movie and then I wish I had that kind of family. Instead of the family that I have I mean don’t think I hate my family I wouldn’t trade them for the world. They have taught me a whole lot. I have learned about religion, to help others, to work hard, and how to be a bad person. I mean I learned how to drink alcohol at age ten, and I was abused in all ways from age 2-15. I ended being a very aggressive person and hurt others.

My dad seemed to neglect me from age 7 to age 13ish until I got into trouble with the law, which was around age 13ish. I remember one time my mom and I got into an argument over me swearing, and when she caught me she yelled “get you’re a*$ down to your room” and she kicked me down the stairs.
My uncle got me into drinking alcohol and it took one time of drinking alcohol, and I was hooked from then on I was abusing alcohol every chance I could. I have drank pretty much everything from beer (gross) to two year old Caribbean rum (spicy).

These are the reasons why I am glad I am in a group home because I am now away from abuse and alcohol. I have been sober for quite some time now. My family has not changed much except my mom has quit smoking that makes me proud of her. My grandparents are still there for me loving and cherishing me as much as they can.

I am now learning how to change it is coming slowly but it is still coming. Change is very possible even you can do it. Thank for taking time out of your day to read this.

Friday, October 3, 2008

STEM CELL RESEARCH/ CLONING
9/26/08



I believe that steam cell research/cloning is a good thing. Because it is interesting and harmless there are no real harmful effects it could have on a person or society, I mean if anything it could help us so much that we could cure many viruses and life threatening diseases and cancers, such as heart disease, sexual transmitted diseases and also many if not all cancers, then we would have much less deaths and many more cured people and much less people on disability from the state/country the money our government puts out for people with disability could be used for many other things. The benefits are that we can help people so much and if it takes a few harmless experiments then we should pursue it.

People are scared of new things, I believe that we have to come out of our bubble in our near future and accept that technology is infinite, meaning that its always advancing and im sure it always will. If society pushes away good things then we will never be able to perfect our work, and if things aren’t perfected is when people will get hurt. If we don’t allow stem cell research or cloning then people are going to be doing it in there basement laboratories and might cause a bigger problem than we would if we had funds to support the experiments.

Taylor K.

Knowledge and Wisdom

What is the difference between knowledge and wisdom ?
Knowledge is just a bunch of mindless facts with no real purpose to life
Wisdom is a extreme understanding of life .
Why are they important ?
Knowledge is important because it is very useful at certain times and help solve problems
But just because you know alot doesn’t mean your smart or stupid.
Wisdom is good in the same way but u cant learn wisdom well not exactly anyway

Tyler

What is a Good Leader?

What is a good leader?


A good leader is somebody that just naturally knows what to do in all of the situations that other people don’t know what to do. When they do something that has to do with the whole group they make a decision that will help the whole group not just themselves. I think that my dad is a big leader because he runs a company so he kind of has to take control. He works with his friends but even if they mess up he has to be hard on them because he has to lead the company in a good direction. He takes care of the whole place by himself because his secretary cant do it and nobody else knows what needs to be done so he has to take care of the place.

Ryan

Afraid of Love

I am afraid of love. I’m afraid to be loved and to let my heart love another.
I have seen love tear people apart, and I’ve seen it bring people together.
I think it seems more like fantasy when I see love, because when you get
hurt by love you end up thinking that it’s always to good to be true.

I think my fear is both negative and positive. It can be positive because
my fear helps me protect me from getting hurt and avoid getting too
attached to anyone. It can be negative because I keep myself from
experiencing anything, and I could miss out on the real thing and
finding what I want in a relationship.

Over all I think my fear has had a negative effect on my life.
I also think that since I have been working on my fears I have
found potential love. It wasn’t where I thought it would be either.
I came to a new school thinking I was content within myself, and
then I met Angelo. Everyone always tells me that I don’t know what
love is and that I’m too young. They are wrong I know what my love is,
and I know how I feel.




By: Shalee

Off Topic

This journal is suppose to be about “what makes writing good”. I really do not want to write about that. Not because I’m a stubborn student, but because I have heavier things weighing on my mind. So, take that.

My brother died around 11:40 Sunday morning on July 13. I remember waking up thinking “blah, I wanna shower”. But when I walked out of my room I saw that my parents were running around, grabbing this and that. When I asked what was going on my mom told me that something had gone wrong with Boyd, my brother, they thought that a blood vessel in his head had burst and he was being transferred to another hospital for a cat scan.

“I want to go!” I said, I must have said it a dozen times before they left. “No,” they’d say. “Why??” “Because we need you here for your brother in case something happens.” I was hurt and angry. And really wanted a shower, even though I wasn’t dirty. Why couldn’t I go? Nothing was going to happen, he was going to pull through like he always did. And even IF something DID happen, we could tell Rickey, my younger brother, when we got back.

Well, my parents left, my brother slept, and I stayed. Instead of taking a shower while I waited to find out what all was going on, I watched t.v. and ate. It seemed to be taking them forever to call and tell me what was going on. So, I decided to call them and ask if I could get on the computer. There was no answer. I was annoyed, thinking that my mom was doing what she usually does to me; sees that it’s me calling and ignores it.

Of course, it really hadn’t been that long since they had left. Maybe a half hour, so, they wouldn’t (or shouldn’t) be at the hospital yet. More and more time went by and I must’ve called half a dozen times, not to ask if I could get on the computer, but now to ask if everything was okay. It had been about an hour and a half, I should’ve heard from them and I was starting to freak out.

Around noon I was able to get ahold of them. I don’t remember if it was that I had called and they finally answered, or if they had called me back. I could tell by my moms voice that something was not good. But I was not, though I should have been, expecting what I heard next. “He’s gone.”

Some more words were exchanged, I can’t remember what they were. We hung up and I put the food I had been holding down and sat on the couch. I wasn’t crying, not yet. After a bit, my brother got up and I asked him to just watch t.v. with me instead of playing his video games. He really didn’t want to, but I can only guess that he could tell that something was wrong so he sat with me.

When my parents got home my mom sat down on the couch with my brother. I was on the loveseat and my dad was in his chair. My brother cried, of course, when she told him. Boyd and Rickey were like buddies, always hanging out, doing what they could together. Rickey didn’t like seeing Boyd sick so he only saw him about 3 times during the time Boyd spent in the hospital. I can’t begin to imagine how he was feeling.

Boyd’s funeral was the following weekend..I felt so bad that I didn’t finish the book I was reading him. I had chose to get high instead. I don’t want to write anymore. And I don’t care if any of you read this or not.

Sena

Scared

What is one thing that you are scared of? Well the first thing that I am scared of is losing the best friend that I have ever had. The other day, on 10/2/08, I had a friend come to me and give me a note and it said that he didn’t want anything to do with me. When I read that all I could think is what happened and how can I make it so that he will want to talk to me? All that night at my house I just sat there and wanted to know what did I do wrong to make him do that.


The next day at school I saw him and all I wanted was to have him hold me and tell me that everything was ok. Also when I saw him I just wanted to cry and tell him that whatever I did to make him mad I would do anything to make him happy again. But If I had one wish right now I would wish that I could turn back time and change everything that I did to make him mad at me. I would give anything and everything to make him and me good again. If you had one wish right now what would you change?

Sarah 1 period

Good Person

The qualities of a good person to me are honesty, trustworthy, respectful and nice. Usually people with these characteristics are good people, at least all the ones that I know. They should know right from wrong also most people do. I know right from wrong because my parents taught me when I was a little kid. I also learned wrong and right at school and church. I think that I know what is wrong from right pretty good. I am pretty sure most of the kids my age know wrong from right. If not they should learn it pretty quickly because if not they are going to have a lot of problems in life and they are also going to get in a lot of trouble if they don’t learn it because they are probably going to make a lot of the wrong choices.

Nick

Leadership

Leadership

Good leaders and idols I have seen in my life and I look up to are usually athletes. My favorite pro players are: Steve Young, Payton Manning, Champ Bailey, and Ladainian Tomlinson. Even though I am older than all of them, I still look up to and love my fellow teammates Tyler Wallace, Tyson Udy, DJ Tealivea.
I believe a great leader is someone who builds trust with those around them. Leaders generate a love from the people that follow them without trickery, manipulation, or force. Leaders also have to put the wants and needs of the group as a whole above themselves. They love their followers.
The greatest leaders lead first by example and then by vocalization. Being approachable and willing to listen is important too. Admitting wrongdoing or bad decisions and changing, as I see it, finishes and completes them. These are all things I am working on and striving to be. I was a leader in football but I went against these things. Hopefully I will earn another chance to redeem myself.

Regan

Fear

What I am afraid of is pretty much what a lot of people are afraid of. My biggest fear is have my loved one lost to death. An example is my father. He is an important part of my life, and I don’t know what I am going to do when he dies. I am scared of loosing him in an accident in drunk driving or a fight with somebody when he is drunk and doesn’t know what he is doing.

This affects my life because it could happen at any minute at any time and nobody knows when it is going to happen. It is a scary thing to think about. It worries me sometimes when it is going to happen what I am going to do when it does happen.

Another thing I am afraid of is my step mom in California having cancer. I don’t know what is going to happen with her. I am not there so I can’t just go over to her house and see what is going on with it. I call her but I don’t know how it is truly affecting her, and my sisters.

It is a scary to think about what you are truly scared of and nobody likes to think about it, but everyone is afraid of at least one thing, Even though some people say they are scared of nothing, if you think long and hard enough there will be something that you are fearing.

Kelsee