I had gone to court yesterday for my review. I wasn’t completely sure how it was going to go on. I was doing what I was supposed to, and passing all of my drug tests. I was coming to school, and going to work… but my family was in court with me. That was what made me a little nervous.

I didn’t really know how to react to that, when I saw them. I knew something was going to happen. Judge Noonan called on me to see how I was doing and if everything was going good. Of course, I said everything was fine; I had money saved, good grades, actually going to school, and passing my drug tests. She was so impressed with that she was speechless. It was actually kind of cool. But then she asked about home visits and my family.

I had to tell her I haven’t been on a home visit since August. My family doesn’t call me, or my foster parents, caseworker, or anything. So I stopped trying to fix things with them. My Judge asked if it hurt my feeling when my parents canceled the visit I scheduled before court, and I just said, yeah a little bit. So then Judge Noonan turned to my parents and talked to them. My dad’s new wife just started crying and acting like she just wanted people to feel sorry for her. She kept going on and on about my past and what I’ve done to hurt her and my dad.

It just kind of makes me think about a lot about my past, when I’m trying to forget about it and move forward. It just bugs me when people bring up things that happened years ago… even months ago. So now my family and I have to start all over and figure out how we all are going to move forward before my next court date in February.

Kelsee