On December of 06 the time seemed to stop and my eyes opened the dam of water. I cried from 10ish to 5:30am and that was most of my crying. I have cried count less times since then and I keep on telling my self “he’s watching over me so stop wasting time and get to work”. I don’t think there is a set time you have to or should grieve over some thing that is sad. Because there is time for self pity but to much gets in the way of what you need to do to “get over it” move on and live life to the fullest not only for you but everyone. Normally after I sleep it over it’s ok or not as bad normally. But have my grandpa die still hurts and it will for awhile.

I would hope my mom didn’t want to get married again for my sake. But I would want her to be as happy as she could be even if it meant she got remarried. I wouldn’t like it because it could be a double loss for me as her kid to have lost my dad and still feel like crap, then have some guy take that place. I extremely dislike seeing people unhappy and not even having the possibility of trying to make things better or cheer them up.

Mark