Friday, January 9, 2009

Last year was crazy. So many different things have happened. Today is my birthday! J I remember my sweet 16, it wasn’t the best I’ve had. It was my first birthday away from any of my real family, so it kind of made me really sad. But this year will definitely be better.
I’ve been dealing a lot with a court case concerning some incidents with my step-dad. It’s been really hard on me. I know I have people I can turn to if I need to talk or cry though. That’s really reassuring. While this case is being processed, there’s one major thing I have learned. Sometimes you have to do things that are really painful to yourself to help others. Right now is a hard time for me to be dealing with pressing charges. This court case has been going on for two years today, and I just want to give up and say, “Just let him go.” But honestly, I would rather go through the pain instead of having some other little girl or boy go through the exact same thing when I could’ve done something to prevent them from feeling the same thing I am. You have to fight for what you think is right.
My sister Amy (20) got pregnant last year. She is due in February with a boy. I’m going to be the best Aunt ever! Especially after living with my aunt and uncle.
I got to see my little brothers Matthew and Jeffrey after two and a half years of not seeing them. I was the happiest I’ve been in a really long time. I love my brothers; they are my life. When I was living with my dad, they were the only reason I stayed and never ran away. I was the one that had to take care of them. Just call me Mommy Rachel. It’s really good to be able to be JUST their sister though.
I went through a really tough heartbreak with an ex boyfriend. He ended up getting into drugs. Drugs really make me angry. If drugs were a person, I would hire a hit man. It seems like everyone I start to love that I end up losing; drugs are usually what end our relationship. I’ve learned a lot about love though. I need to stay strong, and stay close to my true friends and the people that truly do love me, and would never hurt me.
I hope everyone has an awesome 2009!! Make it the best yet!

Rachel

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Rachel!!! I hope you like your birthday!!! I'm glad you are doing better.

Dani

Anonymous said...

I think you are doing so good with what your going through. It takes a strong person to do it. I hope you had a good birthday... sweet 17 instead. My birthday wasn't my best day either... so i understand what you mean. Just keep going strong buddy... everything will go good...

Kelsee 1st.

Anonymous said...

I hope you had i sweet birthday! I have a sister named Amy also she is 22 and kinda like my 2nd mom. I'm sorry to hear about this problem with your step dad, but it sounds like you are doing the right thing stay strong and don't be afrid to say no even if it might hurt someone. Saying yes could hurt you more. I wish i could help you more than I'm able to but when i get out my shoulder is all yours to cry on.

Mark

Anonymous said...

so... that was a good write i bet it feels a little bit good to get your feelings out. i am sorry that you have to go through all of that crap Rachel. i know that crap is not fun. if i can do something to make you feel better then just ask o.k. i mean i won't call you mommy Rachel like your brothers but i will do my best to be a good friend o.k. i hope that all works out for the best. remember Rachel i know i'm a limited friend right but in a little bit i will have some limits relieved in a manner of speaking. i am not going anywhere to fast no need to worry about that. if you want to talk just let me know o.k.

~james~