Adversity and Challenges
I have overcome so many things, even though I’m in a rehab program. I’m a recovering meth and cocaine addict. I defiantly have an addictive personality; I have many addictions though. I have something that beats any of these addictions though; I have potential, personality, and will power. I mean drugs got me through my whole teenage years, but really reality has surprised me many times, especially being put in JJS custody. These last charges I got defiantly was a reality check, I can’t keep running anymore. I thought by lying and manipulating my probation officer and therapist that I would somehow get out of my situation, but by continuing my drug use and rebelling against the system got me further in. It’s just such a challenge everyday facing my peers, because I still want to use, in a way I wish I could go back just because it was so much easier to get high and forget what troubles I was facing. I have found some motivations though; to be positive, look forward to my home visits, and the future that awaits me (being a nurse).
I take this drug problem one step at a time, it’s not like I could overcome these addictions in one day, and the cravings are so great, it’s as it sounds, drug, it has drug me down to the point that I would of traded my soul for it. The high always got me though my day, without it I had to find my support systems, my poor daddy, I talked to him Wednesday night, I just wish I would have tried harder back at home. I cry and pray to god that I can overcome this, I can’t by myself though, and I need my family. The focus program has taught me many things, that I need a higher power to overcome these things, I see love as one of my biggest higher powers. Honestly though if I could go back and change anything, I wouldn’t, because I’m fine with who’ve I become. Everything happens for a reason, I mean I’m glad I got my DUI in a way, I would of never come to a rehab program and face my issues. I always though I never had a problem, until I got put into JJS custody.
Madeleine
3 comments:
hey i like the fact that you are actually trying to get through your drug problems and are thinking about your future as a nurse. i know from personal experiences that an addiction is hard to kick and you need a little help doing it, so your doing a really good job. make sure that you think about every one in your life (friends, family) as support for you 'cause they will always be there to help
that way cool that you have over come that and just keep on going i know kinda what your going through with the addiction just think of people you love to keep going your awesome
jake 1st
i think you are right addictions are very hard to overcome. you did good and i hope you stick to a drug free life.
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