To be, or not to be? The question that goes through my head as often as the sun rises. Since I was a little kid, I was always trying to find out what I want to do with my life. I know it seems a little bizarre for a kid to be thinking about those kinds of things, especially as much as I did but I think it had a lot to do with the fact that my family all grew up to be pathetic wash ups. There are only a few people in my family that actually did something worth while in their life. Ever since I was a child, I promised myself that I would be one of the people to make something out of myself. When I grow up, I will do something amazing with my life.

At such a young age, it’s hard to know what you want to do with your life and so I eventually just put it out of mind and tried to just live life and have fun. I made some really stupid decisions and made parts of my life harder than needed to be but I do not regret it. I have learned so much from my mistakes and am so thankful for the lessons that I have learned because of my dumb decisions. Now if I could’ve learned those lessons without having to make those decisions, I would definitely do that but since that’s not what happened than why stress over it. Throughout my whole life just like everyone else in this world, I have had to make tough decisions a ton. I have had to choose between what I know is right and what is fun. To be a grown up with responsibility or not to be. Well at the time I chose not to be and had a lot of fun but then I learned that you don’t just have to be a mature responsible person especially when you’re a teenager. You can have fun and at the same time do what you know is right and be responsible. I found that when I am doing what’s right and keeping my responsibilities all at once I am much happier. I don’t have to worry about being in trouble and can just relax and have fun. I think I am finally learning how to go about this whole grown up thing.

Now I have been confronted by one of the toughest decisions of my life. What to do with my life, how to pay for college. I have been thinking about and stressing a little over these decisions and have come up with a conclusion. Ever since I was a kid I thought that the military was one of the coolest things ever. I have always thought that the marines are the best. Now I have made my final decision. I know this guy who is in the army and can hook me up with good advice and more money than usual, so I have decided to go into basic training for the army this summer. I’ve made the phone call and now all I have to do is prepare mentally and physically for basic training. My whole summer will be the army which kind of sucks because it’s my last summer before my senior year so I wanted to go crazy and have as much fun as possible before I graduate but I think it is much more important that I be preparing for my future. I will leave this summer and then I will come back for my senior year. I’ll finish up my high school career and then go into the National Guard for at least two years. This was a really hard decision because this is my life for the next two and a half years but I think it’s really good and won’t be as bad as I thought because I will be going to college, possibly working, and be in the national guard all at the same time after I graduate. I think my future is actually looking really bright.