Drugs Bad or Good you make the choise because I can’t for you or I would!

I have used, made, and sold drugs in my life and I have had tons of friends that loved my drug use more then me. That is something I vow to stop in my life as much as I can because all the pain it has caused in my life and the person I love more then anything. I was selling weed and making more money then most people that have a real and legal job. I’m left with nothing and have nothing to show for it enless you cut open my lungs.
The life style that smoking the “bud ” gets you will, if not already is robbing your self of the amazing things you could have and you don’t even see or want to see them. It’s hard for a lot of drug users to see that by using drugs you are living for drugs and not life because it has become your life and everything and anything you do. When you start to lie to the people that are the closest to your all by your self and have to fight to stay “high” and “out of it” to be ok with life. What you have caused around you and you don’t think it hurts anyone, wake up not wake a bake. I thought that drugs where number one, I moved out of the best place I could have been at the time, dropped out of school, cut off all relationships with good friends and stopped caring about life.
I hate when people I know that there high and they think they can pull one over me and make me think that they aren’t on anything. Being fake really gets to me and I feel like shit because I have been down that road and I have done the same things. I have had some friends that are only your friend for one common intrest and when it’s gone so is the friendship. At times when your dealer is out, dry, broke or cought up in the system and getting drug tested. He is just another guy with a phone number you don’t call anymore or even think about. I have know some people that well do anything for them self even if that means snitching out others to stop from getting cofed up. After you get bored of just getting high on weed you move up to bigger and harder drugs and that’s when the super hard times start.
Yes weed is in my mind is the least harmful drug out there but still has it’s effects to lead you to other drugs. You can fight this all day if you don’t think it’s true but weed is a gateway drug and dose make it easer to try other drugs. Ya it comes from a plant, it’s natural, bullshit I have grown it and you add a lot of stuff to make it more potent and higher the THC level from about 11 to 24- 28. I have said that I wouldn’t every use drugs and that weed is just a plant. I won’t use any other drugs, but I did and I never started the day saying I want to use “coke” or anything like that. I told myself that I couldn’t get bored of sitting around and smoke a blunt everyday of the rest of my life but I did and it got vary bad, fast.
I hope I have done something to help you from making the same mistakes I have in my life or at least decresing the pain it causes you and others around you. I wish I could fight the battles for you and not let you or anyone else get hurt ever again from drugs. I want to let you know that you are not alone in the fight. Talk to someone and get the help you need to get back on track for a good life.

Mark